and you begin to think, welcome or not

yeah it’s been a long, what two months, since I last entered a journal.
The only reason why I get to make a post here is because I am in the computer lab at school waiting for my advisor to email me back... FUCK I really need to declare a major...
I have a really big project I am working on that is due on Friday as well as a MAJOR exam.
My Taiko show thing is tomorrow and I still don’t have one of the rhythms right (god damn transitions)
Breath in wind and you are alone
People come and go, I served my purpose, I am no longer needed.
What is solitude, what is loneliness?
One of my friends has pulled himself from the pits of depression with (small) aid from me and has decided that I am not really needed in his new found happiness, I won’t complain too much, at least he no longer wants to kill himself.
Broken people flock to other broken people; if you spend your time holding them together you sometimes forget that you too are falling apart
Breath in water and you drown
Classes are almost over; I will soon be leaving BG for four months. I am happy and I am sad.
Breath in ice and you are numb
The weather is getting really nice, Friday is going to be beautiful, I will look once again up at the wide infinity of the night sky and let my mind wonder, loose myself to the eve and wake to find myself laughing or am I crying?
Breath in fire and you are in love
I have lots of small project to finish, so much to look forward to, this summer I will not waist my life away, this summer I am going to start living a little more
Breath in life and you are? ( no this is not rhetorical)
<some may recognize some of these lines, I have been reading way too much poetry!>